I Hate Hating You

by Saving Jake

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5 lo-fi demos recorded in my bedroom over the course of a few weeks. I wrote these songs about relationships (past and present), mental health, and heartbreak

All vocals/ lyrics, guitar, bass, drums, ukulele, and synth were written and performed by Saving Jake (Ben Ross).


released May 3, 2017



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Saving Jake is the introspective solo project of Ben Ross from Manchester, UK.

Saving Jake plays a variety of genres such as atmospheric indie rock and midwest emo.

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Track Name: Why Do You Always Smell Like Cigarettes?
I think it might rain soon
But I can't drive so we'll have to walk home
The only time I see your face is from the light on your phone
When I'm with you I feel like I'm alone

I needed you more than you needed me
You used to tell me stupid things about a guy you'd see
Loving you was never easy, couldn't do it on a whim
Now he needs you more than you need him

Could I ever make you happy?
Track Name: You Had Me At Hello
We still talk sometimes
I guess about nothing
But it's nice to think I can just go on about bullshit

The texts got sparse as she started seeing someone else
I started thinking to myself
"Does she care about herself?"

I do understand
That I can get clingy
It's just my way of saying
"Hey I Fucking love you"

I've never said it to her but I hope I will one day
Till then I need to start by saying
"Hey" and "How are you?"
Track Name: Pity Me
You woke me up
Listening to your music
So I got up
Bleary eyed and tried to tune in

I saw you last week
I haven't seen you since I was 16
You were crossing the street
But you didn't recognise me

I love what you've done with the place
But I've grown to hate the taste
Of your tobacco stained lips
I hate it when you smoke
Track Name: Collision Theory
I think I might be crazy
So if you're gonna frame me
Don't make me a centre piece
Don't make me

At the end of the day
All I know is
You're just sweet-talking me

Avolition surrounds me
Incapacitating envy
But call me when you need me
Even if I'm sleeping

Hell knows that I deserve it
Cascading in apathy
I guess what I'm trying to say is
I'm sorry